i just want to let my followers know that im not gonna be posting for the next couple of days. monday night i found out i was expecting. tuesday i sat in the er, i was having some sharp pains, did an ultrasound, everything seemed normal, baby was soooo tiny, i almost cried. i was soo excited to see him/her. i was a little over 6 weeks into my pregnancy. the next day i went back to the er because i started bleeding. they did another ultrasound, baby was fine and i got to see the heartbeat, 100 a minute, normal for the stage i was at. doctor said i would be bleeding for the next couple of days, its common. wednesday night i was having really bad cramping but i refused to sit in the er for 6 hours again, so i slept the pain away. last night i went to the bathroom and something didnt seem right. i was bleeding badly. i went back to the er, they did another ultrasound, no baby, no heartbeat. i had a miscarriage. i would of been due May 14, 2012, 2 days before my birthday. i cant think straight, and i just need some time to myself right now…hope you all understand.

im a nervous wreck! and i cant do anything about it except wait…and wait…and wait. i mean i have no other options at this point. 3 weeks and 6 days left__- this blows BIGTIME!

THIS FRIDAY, IN BOSTON, IM THERE. Tyga here i come baby! :)

sorry i havent been able to blog as much anymore. i dont have my laptop and im always on the go. but whenever i have time every now and then i hop on and reblog a post a couple things. thanks to all my followers for being patient, and for the 3 that i lost, well….SCREW. i still love you tho. i love you alll

xoxo, yianc

something i said i’ll never play #stresssssed

*shrugs*

everyday at 12 am (if i’m still awake), i read my horoscope and my boyfriends. and every single time it tells me we’re gonna have a bad day i try to avoid it and he ALWAYS makes it come true (like today). and it always seems to be the days that we make plans with each other. i cant fucking stand it! i love him, but when he’s mad, he has the same exact attitude as i do, the fucking WORST. and all i do all day is hate him and talk shit to the screen! ughhhh, today’s been nothing but back and forth with us. and a lot of ignoring, on his end. i hate it, i hate it, I HATE IT!

i wanna follow more people, anyone know of great ones to follow? please and thank you :)

its always a good great feeling gaining new followers. thank you :)

i haven’t heard from my boyfriend since 4:30. its now 2:48 am. im getting worried, this NEVER happens :\

i’m not gay or anything but i love going. for that one day, every year, the gay community isn’t judged and the smiles on everyone’s faces make me happy that i live in this stupid state (well just at least on this day). the gay community isn’t afraid to let the real them out and for once feel proud about who they are without worrying about someone trying to hurt them, and i mean literally. this stupid city is filled with a bunch of idiots who weren’t raised right and were taught if you were male, you had to like females, and vice versa. they weren’t taught that the gays or lesbians didnt choose that lifestyle, its just who they are.

im not feeling soo good, where’s my boyfriend at?